I met you on an April afternoon

Sad and grieving 

It felt too soon

Sad over another leaving

Took some getting used to

All felt rushed

But it didn’t take too long to know I loved you

Before I was crushed

We worked together

We made a good team

No matter the weather

It was all good as it seemed

You had some bad habits 

I never blamed you

You had a rough past

I had one too

Felt the cold melt into spring

Along with the cold from the pain

Such a beautiful new thing

Turned into a summer rain

I grew attached

Felt nothing but happiness

Seemed like a perfect match

But happiness comes and goes

Like the seasons

What was blooming in spring was a close bond

Fresh and sweet 

We continued to grow close

Now in full bloom, it was one I wanted to keep

Here comes the summer

Warmth and sunshine

Going on walks

And hunting for butterfly

We stuck together

Under the skies of blue

I was proud to call you my partner

We stayed true.

Like the endless blue sky

That’s how we thought it’d stay

Endless, not a tear in my eye

Those blue skies, soon turned gray.

We had our conflicts

But that never stopped us

For I promised we’d overcome them

We’d show everyone

The summer soon came to an end

As well as our happiness

Reminded me of an old friend

Goodbye August

I cherished our friendship

Such a beautiful thing, that I will truly miss

The summer has ended

I knew the sun still shined down

All the pain from winter, had soon mended

I no longer felt like I was to drown

Autumn is approaching, the leaves change color and go

I never guessed

Just like the leaves of sorrow,

Where happiness once was, now lies a mess

People called you dangerous

But who isn’t?

They said you were sensitive 

But I blame the habits

In me, sprung pride

I wanted to prove them all wrong

I wanted to show them how we’ve practiced and tried

But it didn’t take long

I never considered, that wasn’t what you wanted 

You didn’t want to participate

Almost hurting me in the process, as a sign of your thoughts

Now I hate that I couldn’t see straight

I felt so confused

I finally understood why

But I never blamed you

I blamed myself for being so blind

I took you on a walk

Let you graze

While I talked to you 

About how I made a mistake

I felt guilt

I apologized for my lack of empathy

This dynasty we built

Is now left empty

I had no idea it would all come crashing down

In an instant, before I could blink

So I calmed down

And I tried to think

I realized I couldn’t force you to do what was asked

And if I tried, I’d get hurt 

I tried so hard to make it last,

I had hope in my heart, but nothing worked

My friend told me to go inside to chat

I put you in your pasture

I was unexpecting and without a clue that’d I’d become so upset

When I heard the news, I did my best to look mature

I sat down with my boss and her granddaughter

They told me how you weren’t the best fit

My heart had been slaughtered

Like a lamb in some sick trick

I wanted to cry

I couldn’t bear thinking about not being with you

I wanted to hide

I didn’t want to believe it was true

I was given a choice

I could set you free

Where you’d be

In a field of green

In a better life without me

Or I could keep you here

Here with me, making you carry me against your will

A life where you’d be unhappy

Making choices selfishly

I knew I had only one choice

When you love someone so much, it’s plain black and white

I had a voice and a choice

I cried, day and night

I knew I had to let you go

I wasn’t about to repeat history

I was not like your old owner 

I refused to be cruel and make choices selfishly 

I cried myself a new daily routine 

Hurts so well

But grateful heaven sent you to me

It wasn’t hard to tell

You had a rough past

You’re no stranger to human greed

I wanted this all to last

But you left like a leaf on a tree

I wanted to give you an opportunity so you’d be happy

The same happiness you gave me

I was more than willing to exchange mine so you could have yours finally

I knew it was the right thing to do

You would’ve done it for me

I wasn’t thinking about my feelings while choosing

They didn’t matter

You were my main priority

My glass heart had shattered

You never knew happiness

You only knew pain

I had the chance to fix that

Although I was hurt by the change

All I wanted was your freedom and peace

The thing you deserve

Though you picked up the broken pieces before

It feels like torture

I cried every morning I woke up and every night I fell asleep

I refused to believe it’s all gone

I continued to weep 

Couldn’t believe our time is done

Some say I was being mature by choosing to let you go

I call it human decency 

Those who’d choose otherwise will never grow

I didn’t care about my feelings

I knew the right choice isn’t always the easiest

And if it meant you had what you deserve

I was more than willing

It’s past point of no return.

I knew it’d hurt, and I wanted it to

I wanted to be the one suffering the consequences of my choices

Instead of you

You deserved so much better than what I could give you

I wanted it to last, but the universe didn’t agree

I never give up easily

I was forced to quit

Don’t blame yourself, blame me

After everything, I’m grateful

I’m thankful to have had such an amazing horse to call mine

I’m grateful to have been the owner 

Of a horse with a heart of pure gold

I will always love you

For all eternity

I will miss you dearly

But I’m thankful for the memories

Just like the seasons

You’re gone

Like the leaves on the tree

In October’s autumn.

You were my friend

We had a close bond

Although it had to end

Before I knew it, you were gone.

It’s Winter again.